A Life Update

26th August 2016

mostly amelie

A lot of you wander here in search of vegan and long haul travel advice. But some of you (the ones who stick around and support me, I love you all so much!) have a genuine interest in me as a person and how my inner journey unfolds. I owe you a bit of an update… So it’s been six months – SIX! That’s the longest I have stayed anywhere in three years – since I arrived in Berlin from Milan. Obviously, the pace has been very different from the constant backpacking or bicycle touring you’ve known me to do, and the current state of the blog is a reflection of that – I feel like I have nothing exciting for you to bite into. It’s hard for me to share what I am up to for various reasons, and I have been postponing it up until now.

Berlin TV Tower

I mostly want to tell you all is well. It’s been my aim to be as truthful as possible in this whole endeavor. Mostly Amelie has been about my personal journey, and a lot of it has been about me taking control of my life and healing myself from a heartbreak this past year. In all honesty, throughout this I’ve had trouble letting go of Miss Perfect. This was very apparent in my previous life back in Canada before the traveling started, but some, unfortunately, stuck around afterward. The constant desire for perfection, for optimal fitness and health, for work performance, for always being the best version of myself. It became hard for me to just say “fuck it” and let my hair down, even just once in a while. I’d go to bed at 8pm when everyone was out dancing. Because of yoga, because of work, because of what the next day would bring. Because of what I would miss. Because of this and because of that.

Berlin is allowing me to say “fuck it” and it’s a damn good feeling. Both in the greater scheme of things but also at this point in my life. Things are messy and beautiful and imperfect here. Berlin is a safe and wonderful place to let go and indulge in hedonism anonymously and with no judgment from anyone. I’ll leave the rest to your imagination. For now at least.

Mostly Amelie Berlin

Coming to Berlin with a work permit and knowing that I was going to be employed again for the first time in years also meant that I entered the city with a different perspective. It was never going to be a place I passed through, trying to discover as fast as I could in order to generate as many articles as efficiently as possible before leaving. But rather somewhere I came to find inner peace and a home for a few months, make friends, have a routine, get back to my yoga practice and find myself in a bit of a more stable financial situation before moving on. Unfortunately, arriving somewhere where you will be for an extended period of time makes a travel blogger lazy. Postponing touristy things and vegan restaurant outings in favor of casual hangouts in parks with amazing people quickly became the norm. I have been enjoying feeling temporarily more grounded and not stuck to my computer 24/7 with the constant urge to update my social media.

Full-time work also took my life over a little. Blogging alone was a sustainable thing when I traveled and lived in South East Asia or cycled and camped on the roadside, but it’s been a whole other story being in Europe – but I knew it was going to have to be that way moving here. It’s taken me time to find a job I love and that is an extension of what I have been doing here, but I finally have: I am happily managing two online communities and feeling so blessed for the opportunity to convert all that I have acquired through this platform elsewhere in my professional life. Before that happened, I did find myself having to take on more and more sponsored content to stay afloat and started getting the feeling that my blog, which I have always tried to keep as faithful a representation of myself as possible, began to look like a bit of an advertisement. I love this blog – it has brought me so much experience and opportunities, but I also love traveling. And blogging is a means to do that. It is work. But I’ve been finding it difficult to keep a balance between work and blog, and I’d like to make an effort to put more of myself here from now on, whether it be travel related as I make my way through the best hidden Europe destinations, or “getting my freak on in Berlin” related. I’ll also write something soon with proper Berlin tips, but, for now, check out these alternative Berlin insider tips by Margherita and Nick of The Crowded Planet.

ashtanga yoga

I am thankful for the change of pace and for growing small roots. Thankful for great friends and for a city so accepting and free.Thankful for sleepless nights in clubs and hungover days spent in bed watching films and doing absolutely nothing and not feeling bad about it. For people helping me discover a wonderful wild side of myself I didn’t know existed. I still have no idea what the future holds and it is still a great feeling.

24 thoughts on “A Life Update

  1. Jenn

    So lovely to hear a personal update. I’m a big fan of your blog, whatever the topic. Just curious about your work permit. I’m a freelance content writer, blogger and I think we do some similar work. Did you get the freelance visa or are you working for one specific company that sponsored your work permit? I’m thinking of doing something similar myself and not sure of the best avenues. From this site: https://service.berlin.de/dienstleistung/305249/en/ it explains a freelance visa is possible based on economic interest or need. Just curious. Berlin is amazing. Just very grey in the winter.

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    1. Amélie Post author

      Hi Jenn! I am currently on the youth mobility visa which is an agreement between the Canadian and German governments for people aged up to 35 y/o. But thinking of switching to the freelance visa since this one is expiring in 6 months and it seems all I get offered in freelance work anyway 😉

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  2. Mindy

    Balance!…I think it’s one of those things we are always searching for, it’s not always easy, and I’m starting to realise it’s not something we get and then always have, it’s a continuous journey, within and without 🙂 love the blog Amelie! Berlin sounds amazing for vegans! It’s exciting to not always know whats next, happy travels!

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  3. tianna

    Yes! Here is to saying “fuck it” and just going….. Remember when we worked at SBux a MILLION years ago together….our long chats made it apparent we were both striving a little towards perfectionism. I was so sad we fell out of touch until I discovered your blog. Thanks for the update ‘Melie. 🙂 I am glad you found Berlin and are getting away from trying to hold on to all the ends at once. Cheers to the fuck it attitude. Much love my friend.

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  4. lisa

    hey! i just found your blog through searching for veganism in Kuala Lumpur. it’s amazing to read someone so honest and personal…i could spend hours catching up on all your blog posts! i used to live in Kreuzberg (when it was cheaper!) so make sure you write about Berlin more if you feel the urge….i love that city and it would be great to read it! is there a way to subscribe to your blog by email?
    i’m just about to go to Indonesia…i can’t wait to read your posts on it!
    lisa

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    1. Amélie Post author

      Lisa thanks so much for stopping by 🙂 I will definitely be writing about Berlin! You can add my blog to an RSS reader such as Feedly, but I’m in the process of building a newsletter and will be adding an opt-in pop up very soon. Meanwhile, you can follow me on Facebook to be notified when I post something new. Have an awesome time in Indonesia! <3

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  5. Fiona

    Another vote for Berlin! I really will have to visit sometime soon – I spent a lot of time in Germany, but it was before the wall came down (!!!) so I never went to Berlin.

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  6. Sara Broers

    I love that you are paving your path and doing what you love. It looks like blogging has given you opportunities that you otherwise would have never had. Enjoy and best of luck to you!

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  7. Joan Torres

    I’m so happy that you just got into that stage where you just don’t care or don’t give a fuck about anything. Feels good, doesn’t it? And I believe that Berlin is definitely the place to be and balance yourself! Great blog! I’m not a vegan, but love vegan food as well 🙂

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  8. sabrina barbante

    looking for a personal balance as a digital nomad is very hard but crucial! I wrote something about it! by the way… I can’t believe I haven’t read your blog before! I’ll browse further! It looks great!

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  9. Mia

    How great that you found a place that feels like you and a job that fits in as well. I’ve heard great things about Berlin so it’s no wonder you’ve decided to stay and you’re feeling happy. I wish you the best in your new endeavours and I can’t wait to read more.

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  10. chrysoula

    It is good to take your time sometimes and it si wonderful to have found a job you really enjoy. Looking forward to more posts like this

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  11. Megan

    Thanks for sharing what you’re up to. I’m glad to hear you’re enjoying settling into a place. I completely understand the craziness of a job and a blog. It’s a lot of work and all about finding a balance but keep it up. It’s well worth it!

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